I’m a recent college grad, my degree’s in graphic design. I have a seasonal job as an airbrush artist; been looking for full time work since August, had interviews without any luck after following up. My fields down mainly due to the economy and finding my first full time job outta college is extremely difficult. I’m planning on going back to my seasonal job as a back up plan; hopefully they’ll promote me again. I think it’s the most secure job I have now next to nothing. I’m taking a class that’s like an internship next month and would like to keep that class, since I think it’s my ticket to getting more relevant work experience. You see, I’m scared that if I’m offered my first full time job they’ll lay me off like six months later due to the crappy economy and I’ll be out on the street with unemployment drying up due to lack of agency experience–is it crazy to worry about this and to feel this way??. I’m very worried about job security–this is why my friend and I are launching our own graphic design biz–we want to get a cheap LLC from my lawyer and have our kick @$$ website fully up after the holidays and making some serious, “stupid” money–which is why I’ve been organizing and working on my portfolio like mad!! Also, I tried the “work at home” route and all of them are scams and a bunch of cold calling. I was in Amway/Quixtar as an IBO selling lame and expensive products; a lot of investment involved–I was an idiot for joining that “cult” I still live at home like a loser payin off my loans, but have family who supports me. A friend told me this joke about being a stripper–I actually took that joke seriously cause I heard girls in that industry make like $1,000 a night!! I just get so side tracked and don’t know what to do with my life. I want unlimited income and don’t want to be working for someone else for the rest of my life–I WANT TO BE SELF EMPLOYED AND WELL OFF DOING WHAT I LOVE TO DO IN GRAPHIC DESIGN. My problem is that I fear job security and don’t have a personality of a sales marketing person–so how can I develop that type of personality in a short period of time for me and my friend’s biz?? I just get so paranoid cause of the economy and that I won’t get sales and clients, etc, maybe I should try meditating so I could slow down or calm down–have I just gone crazy??
